I'm Back!!! Actually i never left :)

So guys i'm back!!! Shit it has been so long. Like almost 3 years!!! which went by like a Japanese bullet train. Writing this i realize that i really miss the times i used to blog regularly. I loved interacting with and following my blogger family. They were my support system. They have helped me through some really tough times. And i'm glad that i had that time here.

So Coming to the big news... Drum roll please... I'm Married.. Yayy!!.. I've been happily Married Alhamdulillah for more than 2 years now.. And funny thing is i'm married to the person that my last post is directed at.. The person who was interested in my blog :P

I stopped writing since i couldn't find any reason to write anymore. Now i'm writing because my Wife's birthday is up and Shes always been jealous that i haven't written a blog on her. :) Things you write that come back to haunt you right :)

Well i'm gona start by sharing the things that i've learned so far.

Love is nothing until you start living with the person you think that your in love with. Until you spend each and every minute of your life either physically and emotionally with that person. Until you feel the emptiness feeling inside of you when you go away from them. Until you've moved on from all the lovey doveyness and after you've had all the fights and anger controlling moments. Until you move on from all the hot steamy sex. Until you've been there for each other in your most vulnerable moments (and that person is the only one that understands that that specific moment was your most vulnerable).
Until you've had a baby with the person and gone through the pressures of raising a baby. Of going through sleepless and tireless nights accompanied by a crying baby. Until you've handled with them the complexities of living in a joint family system. Until you've gone through all the highs and lows.
 I can honestly and happily say that i'm totally and completely and absolutely in love with my Wife. The person who i live with and share each and everything of mine. She really is in the true sense of the words "My Everything".
 
Happy Birthday My Love. Thanks for all the great and memorable times so far. And hopefully we will continue to have them for the rest of our live.

PS: Sorry for the being late with this post :)

Who are you? :)

Hey.. the one whose commenting on my old posts... Add me on gmail lonelypervertedsoul@gmail.com
... Lets talk...

Loving The Alien (Sometimes)

Velvet Revolver

Sometimes I think I'm scared
Sometimes I know
I feel like making love
Sometimes I don't
I feel like letting go
Maybe not
I feel like giving up
Is all we got

Sometimes is all the time
And never means maybe
Sometimes is all the time
Maybe

And I'm moving on
And I'm moving on (Sometimes I feel alone)
And I'm moving on
And I'm moving on

Sometimes I make believe
When we're alone
Machines have taken hold
Can you get me to a telephone
It's just the little things
You used to see
Am I still that man who makes you who you want to be

I never noticed
How lovely were the aliens
Lovely were the aliens
I never noticed
Lovely were the aliens
Lovely were the aliens

PS: This is supposed to be a happy post :D Hope all you guys are doing okay.

All Good

I am Good... I doing Great... Just wanted to let you know... She said No... So i am still Single :)... Take Care... Bye...

You are Everything

I always kinda feel depressed during Ramadan... As it makes me feel guilty.... But the sad thing is i never seem to do anything about it...

So my mind is fucked up right now... Not for the above mentioned reason... But due to some issues which might be considered normal for some any other person but not for a freak like me... I am what you may call a perfectionist or borderline OCD patient at work and life too.. Work is mentioned separately as it's like more than 80% of my life ... I need to do something in specific way.. When i do something the results need to go in a specific way... If i'm faced with a problem i have to fix it as soon as possible otherwise it literally fucks up my life... I am unable to do anything else till that problem is solved... I find it really hard to clear my head... This is one of the basic problems that i face... Right now im blogging from work because i need to clear my head and i don't have anyone right now to talk with...

I am listening to Everything by Lifehouse... which has made me feel that i really need someone right now... I need someone who i can call you are my everything....

Will you please you make up your mind by now... I need you to decide soon... I want you to be the one... I am hoping that you are the one... But i think i have come to the point that i need you to decide a bit quickly.... What the hell i don't even know if your still thinking about it or not.... Anyways i need an answer soon so i can settle for someone else.... And yes i use the word settling because the problem is i know that deep down inside she wasn't my first choice... I may always feel guilty for it...

My head hurts badly now....

Depressed & Flames

So haven't felt this way for a pretty long time now... I'm feeling depressed.. I don't know why and how.. But I am... Listening to Flames by VAST... I don't know what to do... I tried sleeping.... I couldn't ... So just started blogging.... Maybe just the negativity of the whole world or something is getting to me... I wanna feel accomplishment... i wana feel loved by someone other than my Mom and Dad... Even though there love supersedes anything in this world.. But i'm just stupid in that way... I'm just being weird and crazy like the real me... No matter how much i try to pretend or try to change i cannot change the real me... This is the real me.. This is who i am.. The depressed lonely old idiot who just can't seem to realize the good things in life... Just... Ughhhhh..... Whatever.... There is no use anymore...

Ps: I'll be fine tomorrow...

Blogging Community

So what happened to the people who started blogging just because of the reason that someone broke their heart.... Are you people still there.... Please raise your voices... We need to stick together... We cannot let these people with their political blogs take over the blogging community... We need to tell the world that people like us are here to stay... Please shout and scream if your one of us...

My new Rocker Chic Obsession

Taylor Momsen is my new Rocker Chic obsession....





Btw Shes only 17.....

You want me to beg

Ok i know i haven't been around the blog but i just wanted to get somethings out.... So when someone like me has gotten up to someone and expressed his or her feelings its a pretty hard thing .. Its like once in a life time thing... So its sad to say that this person might not be able to do the same thing ever again in his or her life... Which means he or she would never find someone he might like or even love ever again coz they might just not have the strength to do it again... So only thing possible would be for that person which this person (like me) likes would come up to this person themselves and say what this person wants to say to them... (I hope someone gets me)... But thats like in one in a million chance to happen... So have no clue what will happen.... Anyways... Yes i like you... I don't wana say i love you cause i only want to say that when theres not a single doubt in my mind.... And yes probably i'm not going to say this to you cause probably i don't really have the strength anymore.. I kinda am trying to build up the strength but your really not helping.... But that's not your fault either cause you have to be sure about what you wana do and so on... Plus you deserve someone who will first court you than go through all the practices that first happen before he deserves your time etc etc... Anyways... I don't know whats going to happen... But right now i just want to say that i'm gona try my best to keep you happy.... Bye for now

This Night

There are things
I have done
There's a place
I have gone
There's a beast
And I let it run
Now it's running . . .
My way

There are things
I regret
To can't forgive
You can't forget
There's a gift
That you sent
You sent it . . .
My way

(Chorus)
So take this night
Wrap it around me like a sheet
I know I'm not forgiven
But I need a place to sleep
So take this night
And lay me down on the street
I know I'm not forgiven
But I hope that I'll be given . . .
Some peace

There's a game
That I play
There are rules
I had to break
There's mistakes
That I made
But I made them . . .
My way

(chorus)
So take this night
Wrap it around me like a sheet
I know I'm not forgiven
But I need a place to sleep
So take this night
And lay me down on the street
I know I'm not forgiven
But I hope that I'll be given . . .
Some peace . . .
Some peace . . .
Some peace