Im broken

So last week was a mess... Really fucked up... Went to play paintball with my office team.. It was okay.. Was kinda scared that i would meet my ex there... People that know me know the reason for that... But i didnt.. But a team mate of mine nearly lost an eye... Which was fucked up... Then Next day had to stay the whole night on site due to fucking pre-paid issues... Next day went the same... Friady was like hectic.. Went to office in the morning.. Then went for gaming at FAST NASCON at night.. Got our assess kicked.. :P Then on saturday Lucky bastards MAN U scored in the last minute... Than again had to stay the whole night in office again due some other GPRS issues.. Life sucks... Sunday spent it with friends... which was okay.. Arsenal fucking lost again.... An Ex of a friend of mine got married on Sunday so he was down... So hung out with him... Life sucks... Whatever... Need something else.. Job is taking over...This week im on evening duty which sucks.... Love this song... I love the emotion in it....



I wanted you to know I love the way you laugh
I wanna hold you high and steal your pain away
I keep your photograph; I know it serves me well
I wanna hold you high and steal your pain

�Cause I�m broken when I�m lonesome
And I don�t feel right when you�re gone away

You've gone away, you don't feel me anymore

The worst is over now and we can breathe again
I wanna hold you high, you steal my pain away
There�s so much left to learn, and no one left to fight
I wanna hold you high and steal your pain

�Cause I�m broken when I�m open
And I don�t feel like I am strong enough
�Cause I�m broken when I�m lonesome
And I don�t feel right when you�re gone away

�Cause I�m broken when I�m open
And I don�t feel like I am strong enough
�Cause I�m broken when I�m lonesome
And I don�t feel right when you�re gone away

�Cause I�m broken when I�m lonesome
And I don�t feel right when you�re gone

You've gone away, you don't feel me anymore

Sex (lets just forget about the making love) Part 2

So some of the comments on my previous post made me really curious...And made me want to conduct a serious public poll of sorts....How many people out there think that sex is overated??.... There will be just 2 options...
1: Yes, sex is overated...
2:No, sex is not overated...

There would be no abstaining....Think of it as a social experiment....And which can only be conducted with the help of the couple of so readers that i have....Please make the same poll on your blog as well.. and spread the same to your readers.. and ask them to do the same.... I'll give it 1 month since im a very unknown person... Ill be glad if we can get 100 votes in total.... We'll tally our results after one month and see what happens.... Anyways this just a suggestion .. I hope some you guys and girls would wana go through wid it.... you can vote by commenting on this post also.... I just dont know how to make a poll on my blog.. :P Anyways.. lets see what happens....

Anyways.. getting back to my life here.... Thanks to my friend buying a bryan adams cassette for his really old barely running car going at speed of 30 hm/hour....Im now stuck on summer of 69... Its just one those songs that everybody has heard...and almost everybody likes... But life is just so ironic ...like the alanis morissette's song "ironic".... coz my ex-gf nick on msn was "summer of 69"... Now that just cracks me up... I mean its not like im going all depress again thinking abt her.. its just that i find this really funny.... And this happens to once every month... i find something in my life which is so related to her.. or just my mind thinks that way.... Last month was Kajol's acting in my name is khan... She was soo like her...:D Hahahahah... i just find it so damn funny... Anyways.. people please do think about going through with that poll thing....Heres summer of 69...

Making Love

So has any of you ever though that whats so special about making love AKA sex... Seriously... have you..we all know that all us love it but have we ever thought that why we love it other than it just feels so good wala part... Is the story the story of Adam and Eve and the garden of eden true.. Did Hazrat Adam ate the forbidden fruit to impress a girl..just so he can be the "bad boy"...Or am i committing some kind of blasphemy here.. Human beings love the act of making love and once one of does commit that act they in most of the case just can't stop thinking about it.. I have a question for the doctors out there.. is it really true that some of us really have a high sexual drive as compared to others... Wat is the measure of a persons sexual drive biologically.. Can it be measured? ... if it can.. has anyone ever done the test of measuring the sexual drives of a normal person and let say of a rapist... If there really is something biological about have a high sexual drive than can't a rapist plead not guilty in court on the grounds that he just couldn't help it.. :P
I really am going weird today... Am just bored with life and trying to stir up something new...

I wanted to write something romantic about making love but just couldnt... was just maybe not in the mood.... Something about the feeling you get when you kiss someone or someone kisses you.. and when you touch someone and someone touches you.... I don't know... Im thinking about studying economics or human psychology in my free time.. Recommend me some good and simple books on these subjects if you have in mind...
Im getting really fat these days .. :P Its bad being lonely and perverted.. But now im fat too... Things are bad now.. Thinking of changing the name to "FAT lonely perverted soul" ... Now i really have no chance of finding a girl.... Hmmm....

So Somehow

So im bored right now and have to go to office tomorrow which is so messed up.... And office is so fucked up these days.. Like with all the small fucking politics....Anyways have to go through it all... I really should blog on a regular basis.. So that i can get back to good things... I need to start reading somehow... I was just passing by the book shop today and i saw the new fatima bhutto book "Songs of Blood and the Sword".. i think i shud start with that one... But i dont know if i can... I need new things .. i need new stuff... But i dont want new people... I want the same old people.... I hang out with the same people everyday and i like it... But i do want someone from the opposite sex... That will be good....:P But those things are left up to my mother now.... Im really bored... I've been just lazy and stuff.. need some stuff.... I think "Silverchair" has never been on my blog so im gona start with their debut song "tomorrow"... They really have been i really coool band... So they are a must listen.... And the video is so weird.. I really want to make something like that right now... Here it is...



Things have been so messed up around me... Like how the fucking sake does Shoaib Malik and Sania Mirza came on the TV so much i mean... What happened to the people dieing of hunger and the bomb blasts everywhere... Well seriously our media is really messed up.. They really are like Pakistani people .... They always mess up good things... The free press was a good thing but now i think that its not for the pakistani people.... And then the jinnah hospital thing between the doctors and the press... Really man.. Do we really have to fight among themselves...??

Anyways.. Im just bored... I need some projects but im so sick and tired of the bloody politics.... And im soo fucking jealous of the couples roaming around me... I mean where were we when we were in high school... Or are we just victims of the A-level crowd who are in a different dimension of the country known as Pakistan....

PS: I so want Arsenal to beat barca....

Bewafa.. Gulity Pleasure

For some odd reason i like this odd.. :D.. Somebody shoot mee....

Somebody Kill Depression

So its been like a month since my month since my last month.... No i didnt leave blogging.. i just couldnt get myself to blog... Ive again doing some bad things lately... Hope God can forgive me... Yea i really am one his weirdest creations... He really must have been proud when he made coz i think his goal was to make everyone different and he definitely achieved it with me... So wats been up since my last post... Lets try to some it up... Hmm.. Well mostly Job... Yea i think without my job i would really have been useless.. My job makes me feel worthwhile... But i get so fed up sometimes from all the small politics and shit... Why wont anyone just let me do my job....Anyways.. other than that i just mainly hang out with friends.... Like i always do... Went to lahore for almost a week initially for my cousin's wedding... And it was weird wedding .. Firstly because it just felt weird and secondly because everyone including me was looking for a girl for me... Kinda found one but i dont know wat happened on it.. I just let my Mom handle these things for me....Anyways.. had to stay in lahore for a week on office project... Missed my mom.. Yea im a Momma's boy even though i dont show it to her for some reason i dont know.... My Sister in law came back... which was nice... Arsenal is going good .. Really hoping they win the league this time.... Bought Mauj's new album.. Its really good.. Must listen.... One of my really good friends also came back to Pakistan this weekend... And i have been having fun after a long time.. Life is same as before just going with the end.... I was in on of my down moods just now... Trying to make it good.... I hope i can get back to blogging on a regular basis.. And hope to start commenting on your blogs soon....

Blue...Snuff

Well last week was bad... i did something i shouldnt have done... Any nobody would do and some people wont even think of it but i did it... Which sucks alot.... I hope time will make me forget what i did... Anyways... its not like i was so innocent before... Other than that week was a little heavy... Head kept heavy most of the time... Mainly coz of the late nite sleeping... I think ive decided that im probably gona marry the next girl my parents talk to me about... I think ive had it.. And will just go on...

Anyways... Man u lost and arsenal won which is always a good thing..... Went to a play today... It was okay i guess... Needed something to make it gel but it didnt i think... i still have a heavy head.... Some of the songs i have been listening to over the week...

I really dont know

I really dont know whats up with my life these days.... Its just going along... Actually i think i still dont know what i want anymore.... After the surprising fucked up feelings on the night before yesterday.. i have a back to square one feeling... Anyways.. Hanging in there..... The V day is almost here.... Another useless day thats going to be..... Hoping to go to a concert today to have some kind of fun.... Listening to this song by 30 seconds to Mars these days....



Into the night
Desperate and broken
The sound of a fight
Father has spoken

We were the kings and queens of promise
We were the victims of ourselves
Maybe the children of a lesser God
Between Heaven and Hell
Heaven and Hell

Into your eyes
Hopeless and taken
We stole our new lives
Through blood and name
In defense of our dreams
In defense of our dreams

We were the Kings and Queens of promise
We were the victims of ourselves
Maybe the Children of a lesser God
Between Heaven and Hell
Heaven and Hell

The age of man is over
A darkness comes at dawn
These lessons that we learned here
Have only just begun

We were the Kings and Queens of promise
We were the victims of ourselves
Maybe the Children of a Lesser God
Between Heaven and Hell

We are the Kings
We are the Queens
We are the Kings
We are the Queens

Still Happens...

.Advice in life.... Dont love someone so much that you end up hating them in the end when they leave.....

Saw her today.... Still get that fucked up feeling....

Thanks For the Memories...... Yea Rite

So really Thanks for the memories....I don't know if u get it but im being hugely sarcastic here.... Today was a bad day after sometime.. Felt weird... Its not like i hate my memories .. Im just sick and tired of it.... No im not just talking about the memories with my EX... Im just talking about my memories in general... Memories are just so OVERRATED.... I dont like them anymore... I just feel like that right now... Memories are just something that just keep bugging you or making you laugh.. There just i dont know...(In the words of a teenage girl... "BLEH"...) Anyways... I got this feeling after work and i was just driving around in my car coz my parents werent home and i had no one to open the door for me.... "Thanks for the memories" by Fall out boy came up...(Yea i like Fall out boy) At that point in my life this song just felt so angry and sarcastic and frustrated... Though it felt good... I sang to it to the top of my lungs.... Well im trying to something... but dont know what.. maybe something to do with work.... Anyways ... REALLY... THANKS FOR THE MEMORIES... NOW FUCK OFF....