on Saturday, January 30, 2010
So as you people must have figured out by now that i have been out of blogging these days.... Its like the 30 th January today and i have only blogged just couple of times this month.... Its not like ive been too messed up or broken down that i couldnt get myself to write anything ... its just that i think i was just too lazy... Was down to my perverted ways again... Life is going okay... And by that i really mean "okay"... I kinda miss blogging... Especially missed the people extremely interesting people... Starting off with XEB... I dont know whats up with you these days but i would really like to find out... or i would just have to read all the post that i missed which i may not.... Than with Ally... Hope your doing well and things are good... I would like to apologize to NUR coz i was really bad to her..... Than would like to thank ARITRY for her amazing comments..... And NOUSHKIE i will definitely read all your posts some day.... and thanks AD for always being there.... "Closed eyes" will love to catch up with you.... Somehow i get the feeling that your really cute.. :P .. And "Marina" whereever you are hope your doing good... And to Maryam .. Im sorry for bugging u on FB chat..... And to MEHREEN... How are you doing these days???...And Ubaid my man.. How are things??

Thats my blog family.. Im sorry if i forgot someone.... I know all them all girls except for ubee.. But after all i started this blog becoz of a girl and i wasnt going to turn all gay so soon....

These days im trying to get one of my friends a job so that he can send a marriage proposal to his girl friends home ... LOL.. i know how that feels.. So trying to help him out....

Im just lazy and feeling useless these days...
on Tuesday, January 19, 2010
So let start by recollecting whats been up after 2nd Jan... well u know after that date... My job started again after my leaves... Now i know how its good to have something to do... Really started to realize how big a thing it is for me to have a job... I like my job even though i dont like some of the people i work with.... Though have made some good friends.... In that first week of Jan also a great friend of mine came to pakistan which was a great surprise... Hes getting engaged which is awesome... Everybody has someone .. :) Anyways things have been going more or less smoothly... I ve been okay for those of you concerned out there....:P Watched Avatar in Cinepax... which was surely worth it.... I have been messed up in this small little thing i need to get myself out of.... Theres this test thats coming up for which im not studying for and dont know y i registered for it....

Arsenal for more or less have been going good which has helped also :D Gunners all the way this time :P

My parents have started thinking about my marriage these days... hahahaha.... My response this time is that im not ready now.. :P Yea previously you begged them for it ... :P Anyways... I havent thought abt it that much yet.. so not sure about it.... arranged marriage plus get to know her thing might happen in this case but there isnt a girl yet...

Been taking a training at work these days which i think im later gona regret... Reason becoz of my team lead....

Anyways... this post was to let you know that i kinda have been doin okay...And We'll try to be regular....
on Saturday, January 16, 2010
Been out of blogging in general... Trying to get back... Awesome song this is...

on Saturday, January 2, 2010
So shes getting married today... Finally the day which had pretty much fucked up my annual leaves was here.... I thought i was pretty much over her... Free to live off my sad existence but i was wrong... Her marriage caused a regression.. Just like cancer coming back to its victim... Have been pretty much fucked up the whole day... Been thinking about strange and weird things.. As weird as thinking about the 2 of them on their wedding night...(Yea i know pretty much fucked...) Anyways.. i will live to die another day... I don't mean shit to her right now but i don't why she means this much to me now that her memory fucked up a whole day for me... I feel really stupid... Khair.. went to one of my best friends... Smoked a lot of cigarettes...(No i don't smoke..) Talked a little... feeling a little better now... But still fucked up... Maybe i should listen to that inner voice and the voice of people around me and get married to the first girl my parents put their finger on... But No... I think you enjoy these fucked up feelings... Its just like the Stockholm syndrome... when the victims of kidnapping falls in love with the kidnappers... Anyways.. from monday i start work again... Hopefully some guided insanity will come back to my life...