on Sunday, September 27, 2009
So yesterday was spent at home... Watching the cricket, football and doing nothing else... Then watched greys and supernatural... Felt like the good old days with something missing....

My favorite line from the season opener of greys was "The very worst part is that the minute you think you're past it, it starts all over again. And always, every time, it takes your breath away."....
on Saturday, September 26, 2009

just love the growls of anthony caleb followill...
on Friday, September 25, 2009
I dont have the will power to save myself.... Like that bilal khan's song "bachana" says... "Mein doob rha ..Bachana... Mujhe Bachana..."... i think ive decided that im not gona save myself... ive given up on that.... I just dont wana....
My fucked up sleep and wrong number calling to wake me up..... Aaaaaaaa
on Thursday, September 24, 2009
So she removed me from her facebook friends list... should i feel anything??... its just feels weird and strange... Hmmm... dont know... And i think she has probably blocked me on msn as well as i havent seen her online in a while... Its just feels weird... Well a part of me knows that its for the best.... But still its weird... How come she was so mature than me and knew how to live life....

Okay there some things in this world you just cant explain.. there things you cant explain why you do them... Like ive watched my second kristen stewart movie in 2 days.. First it was "the messengers" than it was "Adventureland".... There something about this girl i just cant put my finger on... Or i just think the girl is hot...
on Monday, September 21, 2009
So i spent all of chand raat and practically all of eid day from 2 to 11 in office....Was in office till 2 on chaand raat... Damn jazzload... Then went to mcdonalds to get some food and hung out with a friend...... Eid was just like that... Damn MMS issue... Anyways.. hopefully ill be able to enjoy the next couple of days....Going to Lahore... Lets see wat happens...
on Saturday, September 19, 2009
So life is steady as it goes.. Though im trying to be content.... life is just in that phase in which your job is mostly control of it.. And you feel you have your bad moments in it and your good moments... But the bad moments seem to be more... Friends are always there for me whenever i need them... i love them for that.... Listening to the song Semi charmed life.... And my life right now is definitely semi charmed right now... I have my opportunities... I just need to get on the right path... I just need to find my inner peace.. I know how to find it actually just i have to be strong.... Ramadan is almost over.. Tommorrow is probably the last roza... actually praying it is otherwise it means another day of work for me... This has been acutally a disappointing month for me as havent passed in a good way as i used to do in the past... But i have other days.... Why is it that i feel to me that i am at a level above frustrated.... As the song says i want something else to get me through this semi charmed kinda life.... I have my people.. I have my goto people... I am blessed in that way... I wana be good to my family...
I believe people should follow their heart.... Brains just messes up all your life for you....
Anyways... Ended the second season of CHUCK today... Had a nice ending... Not one of those overly intense season ending like most of them are.... Tomorrow ill probably wake up late as usual like always do on a holiday around 3 or 4.. Have to be onsite at around 6 since its chaand raat.. And will be in office till 1 probably.. Hopefully it will go smooth.... Hope to meet up with friends after that...
Khair.. Everybody have a nice eid... and pray for each other...
on Saturday, September 12, 2009
When my time comes
Forget the wrong that I've done
Help me leave behind some
Reasons to be missed

And don't resent me
And when you're feeling empty
Keep me in your memory
Leave out all the rest

So feeling empty right now... Its just a feeling i think maybe everyone whose awake at this time of night gets... Well i don't know maybe just people like me... Spent alot of money today.. Just was in one of those moods.... I felt good at the start of the weekend... I still feel okay... Feeling a little lonely though at this moment but it will be okay.... She came online for a while then she went offline... I just note small things like these... Shes getting married in the first week of next year.. Just a thing i have in my head right now....
Been listening to ali zafar's song Nahi ray nahi.. Its one of my guilty pleasure lately...

Arsenal fucking lost again... Which sucked....

You looked really pretty today... I have no clue about the future..... All i know is i have to go on like this... I have to try my best to make my parents happy.... Have to do good at my job.. Coz thats just a self satisfaction thing... Need to get rid of my vices....

Watchn CHUCK these days... Just trying to relax... Hope God forgives me for not spending Ramadan as i should have spent it... It would be nice if i had someone special right now to talk to.... Anyways... Nice guys finish last....
on Wednesday, September 9, 2009
So there are alot of anonymous people hanging around my blog these days... Not that im complaining or anything but who are these people.. Im just curious... Ive always had this curious personality....

So had this bad day at office.. but the day ended up being okay a couple of hours ago.. Which proves if you trust in God things will eventually turn out okay.. But in some cases it takes a really long time.. So im waiting....
on Tuesday, September 8, 2009
Yes i am fucking EMO... Eeannlly.. So Watever... And you do annoy me sometimes even though im the one after you...
Anyways.. so haven't written in a while about stuff these days... Just havent felt like it... I still have this gut wrenching feeling in my stomach every time i hear her name... I mean wat the fuck man.... However.. Ive been feeling somehow a little better... I'll show her someday.. Ill make her regret all of it... I definitely can...

A couple of my friends have left... I feel a little better now that they have left... We'll keep in touch...

I dont wana work sometimes... Im just lazy sometimes or just dont like some of the work a i maybe doing... But i like some of the work too....

I've been out of touch with music these days... Again listening to saari raat of noori...

Feel good that im back to watching series again... Watched "greek" over the weekend all nite.. Been watchn these days too.. Its nice...

Yes my job has become a big part of my life... I dont know if thats a good thing or a bad thing... Anyways im working through life i guess...
on Friday, September 4, 2009
What would you think if I sang out of tune
Would you stand up and walk out on me
Lend me your ears and I'll sing you a song
And I'll try not to sing out of key

Oh, I get by with a little help from my friends
Mm, I get high with a little help from my friends
Mm, gonna try with a little help from my friends

What do I do when my love is away
Does it worry you to be alone?
How do I feel by the end of the day
Are you sad because you're on your own

No, I get by with a little help from my friends
Mm, I get high with a little help from my friends
Mm, gonna try with a little help from my friends

Do you need anybody
I need somebody to love
Could it be anybody
I want somebody to love

Would you believe in a love at first sight
Yes, I'm certain that it happens all the time
What do you see when you turn out the light
I can't tell you but I know it's mine

Oh, I get by with a little help from my friends
Mm, I get high with a little help from my friends
Mm, gonna try with a little help from my friends

Do you need anybody
I just need someone to love
Could it be anybody
I want somebody to love

Oh, I get by with a little help from my friends
Mm, gonna try with a little help from my friends
Mm, I get high with a little help from my friends
Yes I get by with a little help from my friends
With a little help from my friends
Okay following is the best comment i have ever received on my blog... Thanks alot to the anonymous person..... I was going to work right now in my regular gloomy way but right now i feel much better.. Ready to kick some ass...
Dude I can't help laughing at your writings. And it's not that I am laughing at your miseries but the fact that not long ago I was exactly in the same situation. No one can understand your situation better than me. And what a conincidance I worked in operations too. And believe me my condition was so worse that I had to take medication(efexor n stuff) for arrnd 2 years. Trust me dude even this time will pass. As they say,'waqt o nai reya, tr rehna ae wi nai'.

Dude by God shez not worth it. Let me guess u think u won't get someone like her again. That's total bullshit. There r millions of girls out there which are way better than her. And trust me if u wanna be happy in your life come out of this illusion called love. Being a man you should never ever be emotionally dependant on a girl. The moment u ll lose ur guard she ll leave u.

You are not at all weak or anything and crying won't make you any less of a man. But u should get a grip and make your parents happy. Focus on ur career. You should make her know what she missed. But if u ll be all broken she ll never regret her decision.

I am telling u all this coz I know such(not all, there are pretty nice ones out there too) girls are not worth more than a nice shag. And I know u can come outa it coz if I cud anyone can.

Once again never ever depend emotionally on a girl coz that's where u start to lose. It men on whom women depend and not vice verca.

My appologies for being too emotional.

Been there, done that.

Ps. There's plenty of fish in this sea. Happy fishing ;)
on Tuesday, September 1, 2009