on Thursday, October 29, 2009
So the start of my birthday was great... With friends... Ironically it was at the same place as last year but with totally different ppl :P.. LOL how things change... Anyways got home to cut the cake with family which was nice... Lets see how the rest of the day goes... Peace love and harmony :P :P
on Wednesday, October 28, 2009
Everybody has a savior or not?
on Sunday, October 25, 2009


Those of you who know me really well, know that i have thing for chicks that rock.... It has continued with my thing for meesha shafi aka Misha.... The lead vocalist of the band overload.... Although maybe shes not that special but she just has that thing...

Some more rocking chicks are follows...

Hayley Williams from paramore...



Amy Lee formerly of Evanescence



D'arcy Wretzky once a part of the great Smashing Pumpkins...



Sheryl Crow...



Courtney Love the bitch....



Shirley Manson of Garbage



Alanis Morissette



Early Gwen stefani...



There are more i just cant remember them now.....

Anyways... I just wana get this week over with and move on to the next week...Even though my birthday is this week.... This week is going to be a long one... Hope everything goes okay....
Im really digging this song these day... Overload are really good.... Plus This song is so liberating.... You know break whatever chains you have and break away.....

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=W8bIqgjSSpI
on Saturday, October 24, 2009
So i feel lost once again.....
on Friday, October 23, 2009
Today it has been exactly 43 weeks since my break up...Hahaah... i just find that funny... i mean the fact that i know this...

So I wanted to write something yesterday night but just couldnt get myself to do it.... So since im up early today (technically not out of bed though),i decided to write something now....

Yesterday i had lunch with my old office buddies... One of them has moved and joined another company and 2 are still there... So it was a whole lot of fun... I mean it was like nothing had changed... The same lame jokes... The same points on each other... It really was fun even though it was for a short while but still crazy... I miss those times alot... Lunch time was the best... I love those guys... they got me through some tough times.... And they havent changed at all... This was like 5 months ago and im talking abt it like it has been years.... Anyways my point is life changes... And its suppose to change even if the present is the best or the worst ... life will change.....
on Wednesday, October 21, 2009
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DejH3qnhQrA

This really is a ghostly song... Today was a bad day.. just one of those days... Days when a the slightest comment from anyone makes you feel irritated .... Anyways tomorrow is another day... And she comes online... No im not blocked... hahaha.. watever... I need a party... This fucking DST (Daylight saving Time) has messed up my plan to go to a friends wedding to whom a really wanted to go... Hopefully ill be able to go to the valima.... Lets see...

Praying for no more blasts in the country....
on Monday, October 19, 2009
Man those orange mercy west people were definitely weird.... And this epi of greys was weird....life is *long pause wid hmm....* good.. i think... i just have trouble saying that word... Actually it is not that good.. but i can make it good... I can make it great... I just have to work for it... But I dont have the energy in me to make it good.... Why does it seem that love and relationships are 80-90% of life.... is it really... or is just us thinking about it that much... I wana go out... I wana be free... I am free... Weird.. Mood... Fuck... Something... Making no sense.. like always.. You are pretty... I kinda want you.. I wana spend time with you.. I wana get to know you... I wana get used to your smell... I wana be there for you... I wana buy small gifts for you... i want something....

Our country is really messed up... Schools are getting closed.. people are getting killed.. Civil war is going on.... What the hell is happening.. people are thinking about leaving the country.... People are getting married.. people are getting engaged... Babies are born every day.... People are falling in love... people's hearts are getting broken.. People are sad.. there bored... They got nothing... LOL... battlefield...

Anyways... senseless... I wana go out... i want something... Yea you know what i want....Yea you do....
on Saturday, October 10, 2009
Yea i know weird name for a post.... So morning started with the news of the attacks on GHQ.... And here i was looking forward to a relaxing old Saturday... I woke up a little early (which means 12:30 for me) becoz my khala's from america is staying with us these days.. So didnt wana give her the wrong impression...:P Then the news came of the attack... Which turned worse than initially suspected... Things are really bad.. My father thinks that black water is behind all this as the attacks started to happen again ever since they came(me thinks same)... So as the situation start to enfolds i start to think the only serving army person i know is my ex's father... I mean how did she came in my mind on Saturday in which i just wanted to relax... Damn those terrorists.. Anyways i was just laughing at my situation.. Im so weird... I hope her fathers okay and everyone she knows(because she knows alot of army people)....

Khair that was just the start of the day... At around 4 i was out quietly shopping with mom and others at metro that i get a call of some MMS issues... Im getting really tired of the MMS technology... I used to like it because reasons im not sharing but now i hate it... MMS ruined my eid.. And it has since ruined alot of days and weekend... So rest of the day till 9 was ruined by that issue.. Finally got free and eventually took my khala out shopping for shawls and stuff at my friends shop.... Im really thinking abt going somewhere or just do my masters or something..

So now to the second part of the post... Love is blind... Love makes you think that ugliest person in the city is one of the most beautiful and sexiest person around....(im dont mean anything from this line...) Now i want someone whose really one of the hottest woman in town... I wana make people jealous.. When i go out with her i want ppl to say "that lucky bastard how did he get her... He must be filthy rich or something".... When you dont get the person you love.. You just want someone whose hot....So thats y i said love i blind... I dont know why i said this today.. Im just messed up...Listening to noori's "Jo meray" again... Anyways.. I hope the situation in the GHQ is over soon and no more good people have to die...
on Thursday, October 8, 2009
Life is so weird... You want things... They dont go your way... You want to relax.. You want to do something.... Job is geting hectic in a bad way... this week was bad... Really wana go on a world tour.... Birthdays are coming thick and fast... Celebrated one of my frnds bday this week... Midnight is my sis in laws bday... so need to do something..... And all of it is supposed to be a surprise which i dont know how it will be... anyways....
I wana chill for a while which cant happen as long as im doing my current job.. Aur maybe this was the best thing for me... Waisay come to think of it God is working so for me... Maybe a job in which there was nothing i cud do and think of anything else was the best for me... To get me to stop thinking abt "things".... And i also turned down a company which i thot was a wrong decision is maybe closing up.. So it seems it was according to plan... But you ppl know us idiot humans are never happy... Now i dont want a job in which i cant do and think of anything else :P...

Anways let see... Good Luck everyone whose reading this... May u find peace and happiness....
on Monday, October 5, 2009
I just need to focus at the things that are in front of me.. I just need to relax and do what is in front of me.... Focus man.. focus
on Sunday, October 4, 2009
There are sometimes when i just dont feel good about anything... like now i have that kind of feeling.... I dont know im just weird in that way... Hopefully i will learn to deal with it in the future....
on Saturday, October 3, 2009
I have had enough of everything... I just wana leave the country for a couple of months somehow.....