I always kinda feel depressed during Ramadan... As it makes me feel guilty.... But the sad thing is i never seem to do anything about it...
So my mind is fucked up right now... Not for the above mentioned reason... But due to some issues which might be considered normal for some any other person but not for a freak like me... I am what you may call a perfectionist or borderline OCD patient at work and life too.. Work is mentioned separately as it's like more than 80% of my life ... I need to do something in specific way.. When i do something the results need to go in a specific way... If i'm faced with a problem i have to fix it as soon as possible otherwise it literally fucks up my life... I am unable to do anything else till that problem is solved... I find it really hard to clear my head... This is one of the basic problems that i face... Right now im blogging from work because i need to clear my head and i don't have anyone right now to talk with...
I am listening to Everything by Lifehouse... which has made me feel that i really need someone right now... I need someone who i can call you are my everything....
Will you please you make up your mind by now... I need you to decide soon... I want you to be the one... I am hoping that you are the one... But i think i have come to the point that i need you to decide a bit quickly.... What the hell i don't even know if your still thinking about it or not.... Anyways i need an answer soon so i can settle for someone else.... And yes i use the word settling because the problem is i know that deep down inside she wasn't my first choice... I may always feel guilty for it...
My head hurts badly now....
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