You are Everything

on Wednesday, August 3, 2011
I always kinda feel depressed during Ramadan... As it makes me feel guilty.... But the sad thing is i never seem to do anything about it...

So my mind is fucked up right now... Not for the above mentioned reason... But due to some issues which might be considered normal for some any other person but not for a freak like me... I am what you may call a perfectionist or borderline OCD patient at work and life too.. Work is mentioned separately as it's like more than 80% of my life ... I need to do something in specific way.. When i do something the results need to go in a specific way... If i'm faced with a problem i have to fix it as soon as possible otherwise it literally fucks up my life... I am unable to do anything else till that problem is solved... I find it really hard to clear my head... This is one of the basic problems that i face... Right now im blogging from work because i need to clear my head and i don't have anyone right now to talk with...

I am listening to Everything by Lifehouse... which has made me feel that i really need someone right now... I need someone who i can call you are my everything....

Will you please you make up your mind by now... I need you to decide soon... I want you to be the one... I am hoping that you are the one... But i think i have come to the point that i need you to decide a bit quickly.... What the hell i don't even know if your still thinking about it or not.... Anyways i need an answer soon so i can settle for someone else.... And yes i use the word settling because the problem is i know that deep down inside she wasn't my first choice... I may always feel guilty for it...

My head hurts badly now....

19 comments:

nZ! said...

You just need to relax! And pray that she answers you soon, positively!

We all need someone we can call our own, our everything!

treads0ftly said...

“But perhaps you hate a thing and it is good for you; and perhaps you love a thing and it is bad for you. And Allah Knows, while you know not.” [Quran]

Just leave to Him...most often that not what we least expect happens, and that is actually what is best. I talk from experience.

Uruj said...

Dude! We seriously need to see your funny side!

L.F. said...

It's the first time i read your blog and of course, the first time i comment here, but honestly, change your life, make it healthier, try to see things aren't just bad or good and all the beauty you aren't looking at. Life isnt supposed to be easy, and doing all these things too, but it doesnt mean you cant, cause everyone has the strength and the hope enough to get it. Just think in it.

Kisses from Spain :)
[I follow you, obviously, and if you have any doubt about what i said, just ask ^^]

Asma Khan said...

Have courage... :)

Stay Blessed

Gaia said...

Wow, I can relate to your OCD :p
Please don't settle... not until you turn 30 anyway... lol

You're young and you have your whole life ahead of you!!! Look on the bright side (there's always one...)

Sh@s said...

Have patience and be optimistic. Wish you the best of everything. Good luck for your pursuits.

Kaibee said...

You know who we end up with isn't in our hands.. There is no such thing as 'settling for someone else'. Cos basically that someone else was the person you were supposed to settle with. That is how God planned it.

There is no such thing as first choice or second choice.. There is no choice. You are destined to be with one person. And fate has it's way of taking you to that person.

So let things fall in to places on there own. And chill! :D

Eid Mubarak :)

Kaibee said...

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xyzandme said...

Crazy idea that works in these times: Jack off. :p

Anonymous said...

^^

Anonymous said...

i can so relate, i feel like im slowly loosing my mind :(((

Anonymous said...

i understand how you feel. Good blog. I enjoy it(//_^)

Aliza Khan said...

Hmmmmmmmmmmmmm I hope she had answer u by now :)

Boy u need take a deep breath and eat some ice-cream and relax. Evrything's gonna b fine

Uruj said...

Lonely perverted soul, where are you?

Aly said...

Uruj is so bloody right. Dude, look at the funny side!!!

Zeba said...

You haven't updated in a while.. Hope you have a reason to smile when the next Ramadan is around the corner.

Issac@Best Humor Blog said...

ahh nice

Anonymous said...

I think i can relate to u
Don´t worry about it :)
Just feel comfortable in your skin.

You rise as high as your dominant aspiration. You descend to the level of your lowest concept of your self.

I cannot believe the shit people say, total strangers even.. They talk like they know you, judging you, and they don´t even know your name... F--- that, i say! They´re the ones with the problem. Laughing or screaming helps me everytime.