Weird Inc.

So the blast that happened a couple days ago in parade lane pindi has had quite the affect on me.... Im saying it that coz i still thinking about even after a couple of days.... otherwise i forget about these blasts the next day... i said you stop thinking about these things the next day coz you havent lost anyone you know in these blasts.... but it has started to change.... Even though i didnt know any of the people who passed away in the blast directly but it has come down to one degree of separation now... i know alot of people who have lost someone they know in the blast.... And it has gotten really fucked up... May Allah bless all those who passed away.... All this stuff have made me even more emotional than normal.... And i get all weird when i get emotional.... I start thinking about multiple little weird things.... Start thinking about weird stuff... I need to do something to stop this... i dont know what..... what can we do... we cant just sit and mourn and then wait for the next blast to happen.... Are we really so helpless.... We have lost so many good people..... This just has to stop somehow...... The only thing that ive heard and that comes to mind is that we have to stay united.... And that sounds so fucking cliche.... Or maybe we should all join the intelligence agencies and just fight....But... fuck... life goes on..... Maybe not for the ones who lost someone close.... There life is lost.... derailed... changed... stuck in time... But then they are people who are really strong and believe in God... i've seen those people... i dont know if these people are just putting up a brave face or something... But they say they believe and maybe they really do....

I hate myself... i really do... i wana fight the devil in me....I Wana do something... i wana change this somehow...
But i dont do anything....

I've started watching one tree hill again.. LOL... it makes me feel better... Hahahaha.. those emo hunters are gona have a field day with this ...... But it really does a little... i used to watch it becoz it made me forget about my life and i got immersed in the tree hill life... yea those were the good old days.....

Anyways... its another long sunday morning in bed... i think is becoming a tradition now... a sunday morning post.... :P The thing that is bothering me is that i wana talk to my ex about this blast... And i wana know how shes feeling about it.... But i cant.... How come in the hollywood movies the ex boyfriend or girlfriend are always the best friends.... Does that really happen.. i dont know maybe.... but the cycle maybe different..... u cant be friends first than in a relationship and then friends again..... I dont know how life works.....

Okay this is my final line for today.... "The only way to really get over someone is to find someone else...." Trust me there is no other way... it really isn't....

Khair... Good Morning....