World So depressed

on Monday, August 23, 2010
So as everyone has been blogging around... Our country has just gone down the drain... And now there is no use talking about.... Everybody is just so god damn depressed... They feel so helpless... They don't know what to do... I think my depression was contagious or something.... It spread to the whole of the country.... Yea it totally feels that way to me.. Its either that or im just living in alternate reality of my own and my brain is just molding the world around me like the way i am feeling.. Woah.. that could be movie or something... Anyways... We need to get out of this shell of helplessness.... This seems like the movie i saw yesterday.. "shutter island"... you know when everything is just so weird... I need to be in one of those mental hospitals... I think i have a split personality now (like you haven't thought that before).. coz now i'm yelling inside my brain to stop acting so crazy.. Stop acting like your this mentally damaged person... Your totally normal... So just grow up and act like it....

So what can we do about our country... Well... one thought is that all of could take a indefinite leave of absence from our jobs and stuff that we are doing and just go help the flood affected people... Our we don't need to be so dramatic we could just go and help on the weekends... Cut down on our wasteful spending (easier said than done) and the money we save up, give to the people that need them... By the way i think there are alot of good people out there who are actually really doing this stuff , as in working their ass off and giving alot of money but the scale of the disaster is just way too big... I think the civilian organizations should start working with the Army.. because all of us know that the only institution in this country that may have the resources to deal with us is the ARMY... Somehow there needs to be a liaison person between the Army and the civilians...

Write now i have this funny picture in my mind... Like it happens in the disaster movies... There is this central command authority and they have this fancy screens with maps on them with the affected areas highlighted .. And everyone is on the phone co-coordinating the efforts... Like everyone knows where food is required.. Where water is required... Where there are alot of injured people... You know... Things like that... I so wish we had something like that in our country.... Anyways.. back to how i started the post... We can dream and hope but there not much left of it... And everybody is just depressed... And i haven't even started talking about the barbaric Sialkot incident (yea we just call it that.. Can't even think about it..)... And the law and order situation in Karachi... I mean... I maybe committing blasphemy here but i really think that God is just kinda sick & tired with us(including me)... But there is still hope... Yes there always is... They are still good people out there... There are still beautiful babies being born in the camps.... There are still ordinary people help other ordinary people... They are still good things happening... Our bullshit media just needs to portray it more often... (OH yes i really hate our media.. Someday soon im gona write a conspiracy theory about the media).... If they carry on reporting depressing things or just filming people crying... All of our people will need long hours a therapy sessions with a psychiatrist....

On a personal note... I need to take care of myself.. I need to clean up my act... I need have a better sleep routine... Coz the current one isn't good for my health (Im serious)... I need to do something productive outside my job... Or atleast i need to find something... Lets just start with a good routine and some exercise.. :P

So have been listening to some good music lately.... Three days grace new album is great ... Have always loved them... Here is one of the songs.. Appropriately Depressing.. :D



Three Days Grace - World So Cold

I never thought I'd feel this
Guilty and I'm broken down inside
Livin' with myself nothing but lies

I always thought I'd make it
But never knew I'd let it get so bad
Livin' with myself is all I have

I feel numb
I can't come to life
I feel like I'm frozen in time

Livin' in a world so cold, wasting away
Livin' in a shell with no soul since you've gone away
Livin' in a world so cold, counting the days
Since you've gone away, you've gone away

Do you ever feel me?
Do you ever look deep down inside
Starin' at yourself, paralyzed?

I feel numb
I can't come to life
I feel like I'm frozen in time

Livin' in a world so cold, wasting away
Livin' in a shell with no soul since you've gone away
Livin' in a world so cold, counting the days
Since you've gone away, you've gone away from me

I'm too young to lose my soul
I'm too young to feel this old
So long, I'm left behind
I feel like I'm losing my mind

Do you ever feel me?
Do you ever look deep down inside
Starin' at your life, paralyzed?

Livin' in a world so cold, wasting away
Livin' in a shell with no soul since you've gone away
Livin' in a world so cold, counting the days
Since you've gone away, you've gone away from me

I'm too young
I'm too young

2 comments:

quartertoinsane said...

2 things bro... karachi ain't in that bad a condition as the media portrays it... its bad bt nt dat bad, der aint no civil war goin on here, jst a bit of ethnic tension

n m w8ing for dat conspiracy theory 4m u...

nZ! said...

Everything is tense and gloomy around us, it isn't just our mind playing tricks on us, our country indeed is going down the drain.

And you are right, media makes situation far more worse than it actually is, especially in flood affected areas, and the way the stupid channels are taking credit for being the FIRST for taping and airing the Sialkot incident, is just sick, those two teenage kids need some respect, there is no point of showing the video again and again.

God isn't sick and tired of us, God is angry at us, and is giving us a chance to ask for forgiveness, several chances in fact.