Depressed & Flames

So haven't felt this way for a pretty long time now... I'm feeling depressed.. I don't know why and how.. But I am... Listening to Flames by VAST... I don't know what to do... I tried sleeping.... I couldn't ... So just started blogging.... Maybe just the negativity of the whole world or something is getting to me... I wanna feel accomplishment... i wana feel loved by someone other than my Mom and Dad... Even though there love supersedes anything in this world.. But i'm just stupid in that way... I'm just being weird and crazy like the real me... No matter how much i try to pretend or try to change i cannot change the real me... This is the real me.. This is who i am.. The depressed lonely old idiot who just can't seem to realize the good things in life... Just... Ughhhhh..... Whatever.... There is no use anymore...

Ps: I'll be fine tomorrow...

Blogging Community

So what happened to the people who started blogging just because of the reason that someone broke their heart.... Are you people still there.... Please raise your voices... We need to stick together... We cannot let these people with their political blogs take over the blogging community... We need to tell the world that people like us are here to stay... Please shout and scream if your one of us...

My new Rocker Chic Obsession

Taylor Momsen is my new Rocker Chic obsession....





Btw Shes only 17.....

You want me to beg

Ok i know i haven't been around the blog but i just wanted to get somethings out.... So when someone like me has gotten up to someone and expressed his or her feelings its a pretty hard thing .. Its like once in a life time thing... So its sad to say that this person might not be able to do the same thing ever again in his or her life... Which means he or she would never find someone he might like or even love ever again coz they might just not have the strength to do it again... So only thing possible would be for that person which this person (like me) likes would come up to this person themselves and say what this person wants to say to them... (I hope someone gets me)... But thats like in one in a million chance to happen... So have no clue what will happen.... Anyways... Yes i like you... I don't wana say i love you cause i only want to say that when theres not a single doubt in my mind.... And yes probably i'm not going to say this to you cause probably i don't really have the strength anymore.. I kinda am trying to build up the strength but your really not helping.... But that's not your fault either cause you have to be sure about what you wana do and so on... Plus you deserve someone who will first court you than go through all the practices that first happen before he deserves your time etc etc... Anyways... I don't know whats going to happen... But right now i just want to say that i'm gona try my best to keep you happy.... Bye for now

This Night

There are things
I have done
There's a place
I have gone
There's a beast
And I let it run
Now it's running . . .
My way

There are things
I regret
To can't forgive
You can't forget
There's a gift
That you sent
You sent it . . .
My way

(Chorus)
So take this night
Wrap it around me like a sheet
I know I'm not forgiven
But I need a place to sleep
So take this night
And lay me down on the street
I know I'm not forgiven
But I hope that I'll be given . . .
Some peace

There's a game
That I play
There are rules
I had to break
There's mistakes
That I made
But I made them . . .
My way

(chorus)
So take this night
Wrap it around me like a sheet
I know I'm not forgiven
But I need a place to sleep
So take this night
And lay me down on the street
I know I'm not forgiven
But I hope that I'll be given . . .
Some peace . . .
Some peace . . .
Some peace