So im writing this post because im just soo bored right now... I dont know what to do.. Im going crazy as usual... So yesterday's shootings were really sad.. i think death toll is now 98.... I really think its again one of those strategic incidents planned by foreign powers who just want to destabilize a already unstable country... They just want us to fight among ourselves.... And we are so going to fight among ourselves.... I don't know whats going to happen..... And i don't wana talk abt ahmedis or anything or whether it was a ibedatgah or a masjid... All i know that human beings died which is just so sad... So many people are dying these days....
In other news gary coleman also passed away... Yea the short funny guy has died... Definitely a loss for the entertainment industry...
I feel so helpless and bored.... I need to go to Cafe' have sheesha and just chill... But i also need to have good company....
So since the blog is called confessions of a lonely perverted soul i think i should confess that i have a slight female foot fetish.. Not in the weird sucking toes kind of way... I just like to look at girls from the bottom to top rather than top to bottom.. Beautiful and pretty feet are definite pre-requisite for me in a girl...And some nice shoes are also good... :P
I think im gona go just roam around in my car.. Have any of you ever done that..? Just drive around with no where to go... Go right when u feel like going right and go left when you feel like going left.... I do that alot... you should try it sometimes...
on Thursday, May 27, 2010
So Emo times are so Weird... I dedicate this song to my Nani... You're like a shining star in heaven....
In Loving Memory By Alterbridge
Thanks for all you've done
I've missed you for so long
I can't believe you're gone
You still live in me
I feel you in the wind
You guide me constantly
I've never knew what it was to be alone, no
Cause you were always there for me
You were always waiting
And now come home and I miss your face so
Smiling down on me
I close my eyes to see
And I know, you're a part of me
And it's your song that sets me free
I sing it while I feel I can't hold on
I sing tonight cause it comforts me
I carry the things that remind me of you
In loving memory of
The one that was so true
Your were as kind as you could be
And even though you're gone
You still mean the world to me
I've never knew what it was to be alone, no
Cause you were always there for me
You were always waiting
But now I come home and it's not the same, no
It feels empty and alone
I can't believe you're gone
And I know, you're a part of me
And it's your song that sets me free
I sing it while I feel I can't hold on
I sing tonight cause it comforts me
I'm glad he set you free from sorrow
I'll still love you more tomorrow
And you will be here with me still
All you did you did with feeling
And You always found the meaning
And you always will
And you always will
And you always will
Ooo's
And I know, you're a part of me
And it's your song that sets me free
I sing it while I feel I can't hold on
I sing tonight cause it comforts me
Emo times makes me think of weird stuff... They even made me think of her.. You think of all kinds of things... Its just so weird... My annual leaves are ending.. Work starts from Monday....
In Loving Memory By Alterbridge
Thanks for all you've done
I've missed you for so long
I can't believe you're gone
You still live in me
I feel you in the wind
You guide me constantly
I've never knew what it was to be alone, no
Cause you were always there for me
You were always waiting
And now come home and I miss your face so
Smiling down on me
I close my eyes to see
And I know, you're a part of me
And it's your song that sets me free
I sing it while I feel I can't hold on
I sing tonight cause it comforts me
I carry the things that remind me of you
In loving memory of
The one that was so true
Your were as kind as you could be
And even though you're gone
You still mean the world to me
I've never knew what it was to be alone, no
Cause you were always there for me
You were always waiting
But now I come home and it's not the same, no
It feels empty and alone
I can't believe you're gone
And I know, you're a part of me
And it's your song that sets me free
I sing it while I feel I can't hold on
I sing tonight cause it comforts me
I'm glad he set you free from sorrow
I'll still love you more tomorrow
And you will be here with me still
All you did you did with feeling
And You always found the meaning
And you always will
And you always will
And you always will
Ooo's
And I know, you're a part of me
And it's your song that sets me free
I sing it while I feel I can't hold on
I sing tonight cause it comforts me
Emo times makes me think of weird stuff... They even made me think of her.. You think of all kinds of things... Its just so weird... My annual leaves are ending.. Work starts from Monday....
on Wednesday, May 26, 2010
So people for those of you who don't know.. My beloved nanijan passed away after 2 days of my mamoo passing away... She just cudn't live without her beloved son... She was the most beautiful and perfect lady i had seen... She loved everyone ... She loved me alot and i loved her... I would never forgive her and no one will ever replace her... She will be missed alot.... I've cried alot for her... She was like the "Dua denay wali machine" for our family.... Hope my Mom and family have the strength to move on... Hmm...
on Saturday, May 22, 2010
So got back from lahore yesterday after the Qul and everything... I am physically and emotionally drained... Watching loved ones cry and you yourself trying not to cry takes alot out of you.. And you have to do some sort of work around the house as you being one of able body human beings around takes it out of you physically... Im glad that the first couple of days after the death of my mamoo are over and now everyone can get back to back to their lives and me getting back to my annual leaves and roaming around isloo..(yea feels a bit guilty but you have to move on..)
Yesterday night tried out the new cafe cum dine out cum sheesha bar in f-10.. Rock bistro i think its called... I think its a nice place to hang out and its not that expensive if you don't order the not so good drinks (also very little quantity)... As usual nice place for a date as we all boys party like to call it....
So trying to pass the annual leaves that i have left in the best possible way.. Lets see what happens...
So since every one around has their opinion on the whole FB ban thing.. I thought i should write something about it too....
First of all lets make one thing clear... Something needed to be done... We couldn't just ignore it...
Secondly im not pro Ban and im not either against...
I don't think it was the right step to take.... Something should have been done on a legal level against FB instead of just banning the site... Like it was done against youtube when a Rape video of a British Mom ran out it for a couple of hours....
Also i don't think the FB ban was done with the right intentions.. they must have had something else in mind... ( but im not sure about it)...
Furhtermore, we are no longer in the 1990's... We have equipment now to Ban single URL's instead of the whole Fucking domain....So that should have been done...
The Ban was announced by uneducated people who don't know shit about IT....
Also one other thing... I think banning whole sites would just inspire more attention seekers to do more stuff like this....
Anyways... this problem is like a distraction for a troubled country like ours...
We have things like the Energy crisis.. CNG crisis... Hunza valley floods to worry about...
Yesterday night tried out the new cafe cum dine out cum sheesha bar in f-10.. Rock bistro i think its called... I think its a nice place to hang out and its not that expensive if you don't order the not so good drinks (also very little quantity)... As usual nice place for a date as we all boys party like to call it....
So trying to pass the annual leaves that i have left in the best possible way.. Lets see what happens...
So since every one around has their opinion on the whole FB ban thing.. I thought i should write something about it too....
First of all lets make one thing clear... Something needed to be done... We couldn't just ignore it...
Secondly im not pro Ban and im not either against...
I don't think it was the right step to take.... Something should have been done on a legal level against FB instead of just banning the site... Like it was done against youtube when a Rape video of a British Mom ran out it for a couple of hours....
Also i don't think the FB ban was done with the right intentions.. they must have had something else in mind... ( but im not sure about it)...
Furhtermore, we are no longer in the 1990's... We have equipment now to Ban single URL's instead of the whole Fucking domain....So that should have been done...
The Ban was announced by uneducated people who don't know shit about IT....
Also one other thing... I think banning whole sites would just inspire more attention seekers to do more stuff like this....
Anyways... this problem is like a distraction for a troubled country like ours...
We have things like the Energy crisis.. CNG crisis... Hunza valley floods to worry about...
on Wednesday, May 19, 2010
So while the country is worrying abt the facebook ban and all that shit.. My mamo passed away at arnd 2:20pm today(yesterday now).. May he rest in peace.. He was one of the nicest and soft spoken man i knew.. Just like my tayaa who passed away a cpl years back.. All the nice ppl are leaving ths world.. He was a true "darwaish".. Never bothered anyone for his work.. Even whn he cudnt walk... Even whn he was dead he had smile on his face.. Allah unko jannat atta keray.. We shall miss him..
on Monday, May 17, 2010
So currently the situation is slightly better... I mean atleast there is hope now.. But its a long process.. And im leaving probably tomorow for isloo.. Back to my routine and trying to start enjoyin my annual leaves... Hope everythng goes gud.. Btw my mom is still looking for a girl for me.. So any1 interested?
on Sunday, May 16, 2010
So its still the same situation.. Now im just thnking tht Allah will do the best.. Whethr he passes him onto the next life where inshaALLAH he will be in heaven... Or he keeps him alive in ths life.. In whch insaALLAH he will be in a better condition.. Now im just worried abt my nani ,mom and the rest of the family.. Hope Allah gives them the strength... Anyways on another note.. The only friend of mine.. Actually both of them were my friends.. There relationship might not be working out.. I mean they were the only ppl in my life that were a done deal.. Btw i had a crush on ths girl for a long time and i was kinda jealous of my frnd.. But stil i wanted them to be together and happy.. Its the usual deal with parents and stuff.. Let me get free and thn im gona push them two... Lets see wat happens.. But ths was kinda shock to me... Also my last 2 posts have been frm my cellphone.. So my hands are aching now.. Anyways take care everyone.. Hoping tomorrow is a better day..
on Saturday, May 15, 2010
So im in lahore rite now and my mamoo is in coma.. I mean things are so weird when a person close to your family is in coma.. You mostly know that the person is going to pass away.. That only a miracle will save them.. Sometimes i wish this was one of grey's episodes and mcdreamy would be the hero and save the patient with one of his remarkable surgeries... But this is real life and bad things mostly happen.. Its almost 2 years ago that my tayaa went into a coma.. And my dad and all of us had to go through it all.. And now my mom and her family is going through it all especially my mamii and her kids... My nani is in depression which is also the worst and scary... Its just so sad and fucked up but this is life and people just have to deal with it.. All we can do is go through it all and cry with them and just try to deal with it in best possible way.. I just hope everything happens for the best... Today was my first day of my first half of annual leaves... Yesterday was pretty bad.. Today was the worst.. Im just hoping the rest of my annual leaves arent the same.. Please pray for a miracle.. Thats all we can do..
on Friday, May 14, 2010
So really shit happens... and sometimes its really alot.......Today was a shitty day... I just can 't believe how shitty the day was.... Anyways... Im really into damien rice these days.... So fuck it....
rootless tree
what i want from you
is empty your head
they say be true,
don't stain your bed
we do what we need to be free
and it leans on me
like a rootless tree
what i want from us
is empty our minds
we fake a fuss
and fracture the times
we go blind
when we've needed to see
and this leans on me
like a rootless...
so fuck you
and all we've been through
i said leave it
it's nothing to you
and if you hate me
then hate me so good that you can let me out
let me out of this hell when you're around
what i want from this
is learn to let go
no not of you
of all that's been told
killers reinvent and believe
and this leans on me
like a rootless...
so fuck you
and all we've been through
i said leave it
it's nothing to you
and if you hate me
then hate me so good that you can let me out
let me out of this hell when you're around
let me out...
and fuck you, fuck you, i love you
and all we've been through
i said leave it
it's nothing to you
and if you hate me
then hate me so good that you can let me out
let me out...
it's hell when you're around
rootless tree
what i want from you
is empty your head
they say be true,
don't stain your bed
we do what we need to be free
and it leans on me
like a rootless tree
what i want from us
is empty our minds
we fake a fuss
and fracture the times
we go blind
when we've needed to see
and this leans on me
like a rootless...
so fuck you
and all we've been through
i said leave it
it's nothing to you
and if you hate me
then hate me so good that you can let me out
let me out of this hell when you're around
what i want from this
is learn to let go
no not of you
of all that's been told
killers reinvent and believe
and this leans on me
like a rootless...
so fuck you
and all we've been through
i said leave it
it's nothing to you
and if you hate me
then hate me so good that you can let me out
let me out of this hell when you're around
let me out...
and fuck you, fuck you, i love you
and all we've been through
i said leave it
it's nothing to you
and if you hate me
then hate me so good that you can let me out
let me out...
it's hell when you're around
on Wednesday, May 12, 2010
Somebody recommended this song to me and grew into it.. Initially to me it wasn't something special but with time and mood i liked it...
leave me out with the waste this is not what i do
it's the wrong kind of place to be thinking of you
it's the wrong time for somebody new
it's a small crime and i got no excuse
and is that alright yeah?
i give my gun away when it's loaded
is that alright yeah?
if you don't shoot it how am i supposed to hold it?
is that alright yeah?
i give my gun away when it's loaded
is that alright yeah, with you?
leave me out with the waste this is not what i do
it's the wrong kind of place to be cheating on you
it's the wrong time she's pulling me through
it's a small crime and i got no excuse
and is that alright yeah?
if i give my gun away when it's loaded
is that alright yeah?
if you don't shoot it how am i supposed to hold it?
is that alright yeah?
i give my gun away when it's loaded
is that alright?
is that alright with you?
is that alright yeah?
if i give my gun away when it's loaded
is that alright yeah?
if you don't shoot it how am i supposed to hold it?
is that alright yeah?
i give my gun away when it's loaded
is that alright
is that alright with you
and is that alright yeah?
is that alright
is that alright
is that alright with you?
no?
leave me out with the waste this is not what i do
it's the wrong kind of place to be thinking of you
it's the wrong time for somebody new
it's a small crime and i got no excuse
and is that alright yeah?
i give my gun away when it's loaded
is that alright yeah?
if you don't shoot it how am i supposed to hold it?
is that alright yeah?
i give my gun away when it's loaded
is that alright yeah, with you?
leave me out with the waste this is not what i do
it's the wrong kind of place to be cheating on you
it's the wrong time she's pulling me through
it's a small crime and i got no excuse
and is that alright yeah?
if i give my gun away when it's loaded
is that alright yeah?
if you don't shoot it how am i supposed to hold it?
is that alright yeah?
i give my gun away when it's loaded
is that alright?
is that alright with you?
is that alright yeah?
if i give my gun away when it's loaded
is that alright yeah?
if you don't shoot it how am i supposed to hold it?
is that alright yeah?
i give my gun away when it's loaded
is that alright
is that alright with you
and is that alright yeah?
is that alright
is that alright
is that alright with you?
no?
on Sunday, May 9, 2010
So seriously im a momma's boy... i can't think of living without my mom... She take cares of everything... Even today she made me breakfast... she never gets tired of making me breakfast or making me eat my breakfast or lunch or dinner.... even when i always reject it... i can't even think of day when she didn't say to me keh khana kha lo... She always takes care of me and doesn't care about herself.... No matter how late i come she always gets up to open the door and to make sure that i have eaten.... She always tries to make me happy... I soo love you mom... Even though i maybe the worst person to have as a kid... And im never good to you... but your always good to me... I love you the most... Im sorry for all the trouble and pain that i caused... i'll love you always and forever...
So this time i thought i should take out my mom for lunch and shopping... So i did... I like Mothers day... it reminds to be good to my mom... it reminds me to promise myself that ill give my mom more time... But i never do...She deserves so much for me... I LOVE YOU MOM!!!!!!!!!!
So this time i thought i should take out my mom for lunch and shopping... So i did... I like Mothers day... it reminds to be good to my mom... it reminds me to promise myself that ill give my mom more time... But i never do...She deserves so much for me... I LOVE YOU MOM!!!!!!!!!!
on Thursday, May 6, 2010
So things are just a little weird.... I dont know why but they kinda are... I need a break from my job.. and will probably get after next week.... Things are not that bad actually (excluding my job) but a little weird... Just finished watching the latest episode of greys anatomy... Kinda liked it.. These days i dont watch anything in one go.. I just cant get my self to give sometime anything for that amount of time.... Im really not thinking long term these days... Which maybe good or maybe bad.. Not sure.. Im just not sure of things... I need to concentrate on some kind of change.. Dont know what kind.... I kinda miss my bother.... I need some angry music... So have been listening to 3 days grace.... Im bored... I need something exciting.. But the problem is that what is exciting to most people isn't exciting to me.. and what is exciting to me isn't exciting for most of the people.... I just wana hang chill and relax after a hard day at work.... I think i need to get back to my daily posts or something...
PS: can anyone count the times i used "kinda" in this post.. :P
PS: can anyone count the times i used "kinda" in this post.. :P
on Saturday, May 1, 2010
First of All congratz AD on your engagement.. Hope you stay happy for the rest of your life.. And im kinda jealous... :P Anyways.. im looking for girls right now who can get me into parties.. Since all the parties are mostly couples only i need girls who can get me into them... So any of you girls wana help me out.. ill be really greatful to you.. :D.. Khair life is just moving along these days.. nothing special.. Watched a play recently... "We all fall down" ... It was nice.. funny and stuff... other than that nothing new... Just friends - job - home... thats mostly it....
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