Immunity

So the other day someone told me that their immune to all kinds of feeling... I mean this person has actual immunity to feel anything... How cool is that.. I was so jealous of that person... Im sick and tired of the feelings i have... Im tired of all the crap my feelings pull on me... They make me so fucked up.... Im tired of feeling everything and im tired of feeling the nothingness... I wish i had that immunity.. Please somebody show me how do i get that immunity... How can i buy it... tell me please.. Right now ill give anything for it....

So today i have a song of the day after a long time.. And funny enuff its by lifehouse... Those of u who have followed my blog from the start..(yea like there is anyone out there who has done that... :P) ...knows that i have had ths up and down thing with lifehouse... But i had made my peace with them.... Today its their song "breathing" which is the song of the day.. Was listening to it today... This is a nice little song....

I'm finding my way back to sanity, again
Though I don't really know what
I am gonna do when I get there
Take a breath and hold on tight
Spin around one more time
And gracefully fall back in the arms of grace

I am hanging on every word you say
And even if you don't want to speak tonight
That's alright, alright with me
'Cause I want nothing more than to sit
Outside Heaven's door and listen to you breathing
Is where I want to be

I am looking past the shadows
Of my mind into the truth and
I'm trying to identify
The voices in my head
God, which one's you?
Let me feel one more time
What it feels like to feel
And break these calluses off me
One more time

'Cause I am hanging on every word you say
And even if you don't want to speak tonight
That's alright, alright with me
'Cause I want nothing more than to sit
Outside your door and listen to you breathing
Is where I want to be

I don't want a thing from you
Bet you're tired of me waiting
For the scraps to fall
Off your table to the ground
I just want o be here now


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7kqki1HCHOE&feature=related