Crazyy..

So my life at the moment is i think in the danger of being taken over by my work.. Which maybe not a bad thing but i'm not too sure about it.... I have this problem that i constantly need to have something to do or maybe not to do but something nice to think about or do.... Something that keeps me busy in a good... It can be either going out with friends which is in most the cases the thing i do.. Or just something that keeps me from getting bored.. I just can't stay bored for like 5 minutes.. I start going crazy if stay bored for more than that... I constantly need something to entertain me.. And considering the fact im quite different than most people than finding something to entertain my self is quite difficult.... I know.. i need a girl... But is that just it... I mean is my sole fun filled and joyful existence (and is use fun filled and joyful here coz i know i can survive my life one way or the other) depending on finding someone that is compatible for me from the opposite sex... Hmm.. That is kinda scary but i dont know... Is that what we all are looking for is it just me... I see people looking for better things like jobs, studies etc... But are they just really wanting a girl in the end when they all have found those things that they were striving for... Or maybe im just starting from the end.... Maybe im just looking for the girl first and then go for all the other things after that... But if we think a little more about it... What the hell am i going for.... I mean it really is a hell of responsibility having someone or some people depend on you for all kinds of stuff... I mean coz trust me i may not be ready for it because i really am the spoiled brat in my family.. The youngest child... I mean i know i can survive but how can i look after myself having in mind that i have to be in the best of health saying i may have people depend on me in the future... Thats why i say im all for finding a rich girl for myself... So we just can live of her wealthy inheritance all my life and i can just do what i enjoy doing... All you romantic people out there please dont get shocked by this but i think marriage should really be a business proposal.. i mean it should have a business plan with a 5 year road plan which might be reconsidered after every 2 years.... Seriously.. i mean that might be better for all the parties that are involved... Now just don't scream and start cursing me just yet coz i might have said the anti-cupid or anti-love thing... Because i was the romantic once and i like to think i still am and i was prepared to get married just on love with a lousy low paid job and prayers of my parents to go on but it really just don't happen that much.... Anyways.. I kinda really do believe in love and all that but its really hard if its just love... Love just really needs a lot of luck to pull through... And won't harm either to have alot of money too.... Khair.. I think i have emptied my mind alot for now... Thanks for reading my crap if you really are reading it.... And im not gona proof read it either....