Alive

on Wednesday, May 20, 2009
Soo... Im still alive... Another day went by... and im still alive... I dont know how.. I dont know why... But i am still alive.... I have no direction... My plan got destroyed... My dreams were struck by a bolt of lighting and they died at the spot... My life that started a year back is no more... Im still in a state of shock by the lighting.. Now im just repeating the same old thing over and over again.. Maybe because it is the same thing repeating over and over in my life... Its the same thought that is repeated in my mind over and over... Things are getting hard.. And most probably they are going to get even more bad.. But im still alive... All i know is i am alive.. Im breathing.. Im talking... Im walking... Is that what defines a living person?.. I guess so... If thats the definition than i am definitely alive.... Man im really tired today.. The heat has dragged all the energy from me.. Today was not a good day... It was tiring.. It was hot.. Office was not too good... Overall not so good day....

I Have recently joined this Writers lounge blog which helps me in passing the day.. Another way to pass my Life... I really am no fucking writer...(Using the word fuck makes you feel better.. Or atleast it makes me feel better.. So thats y im using it...) But somehow im just posting some Shit... Im definitely not in a good mood today... My switch is back... Things have to be done... There was this series that used to come on ptv a long time ago called time trax.. Me and my brother was really crazy about it.. We used to record it through the VCR even when we were watching it on time... Man those were some really good times... I wish i was that guy who could jump from the body of one person to another through time... Hmm... Anyways... I Hope this month goes by quickly... We'll see next month....

Today the only thing that made me feel a little better was the song "Alive" which i was listening to on my way back from office... This Song made me forget everything and just listen to this song for around 4 mins... And i sang to the top of my voice... This song by Pearl Jam is the song of the day... Even though this song is totally about something not related to my life.. but the line .. Im still alive.. Its just makes you wana scream that line out... IM STILL ALIVE... IM STILL FUCKING ALIVE... I dont knw WHY.. WHY .. WHY... ALL i know is that im STILL FUCKING ALIVE.. Anyways.. ADIOS... Take care of yourselves...

ALIVE:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=e_LQU2-GOXY
http://www.azlyrics.com/lyrics/pearljam/alive.html

PS: I know your sick of it now... But im Still alive....

12 comments:

The Pink Orchid said...

I don't know what to say LPS... Keep writing, I am sure it makes you feel better..

p.s. why are you so angry with life?

Lonely Perverted Soul said...

just one of my bad days...
And thnx for commenting on blog...

SS said...

Hey I think that was Quantum Leap, but TT was also good as I recall.

Lonely Perverted Soul said...

Yea i forgot.. In TT the guy didnt jump into bodies.. He just went back in time to take people back...

Autumn Twig said...

Thanks for dropping by my blog. I appreciate your comment. but why are you so sad....?

Lonely Perverted Soul said...

Things have happened in my life that make me sad... I have my up and down days... Currently im going through some dark days....

Autumn Twig said...

I'm sorry to hear that. Try enlisting small or big things that make you happy be it an image of something or doing something for example venting out through your blog and just focus on keeping yourself busy with that. it helps and i can tell you from experience, everything happens for a good reason

Lonely Perverted Soul said...

Thnx for the advice.. Ive been given advice by alot of ppl and now im just tired of it.. Its hard for me to concentrate... But thnx anyways.. Talking with ppl helps though...

Autumn Twig said...

oho sorry

Lonely Perverted Soul said...

Nhii yar dont be sorry... Im feeling a little better today...
Most probably tonights post shud be a little better...

Ubaid said...

wow dude lots of comments ....

by the way i won't comment on the post ... and you know why

by the way i love the song !!

Lonely Perverted Soul said...

Yea i know why... And i love the song too.. :)