Show me what i'm looking for

on Wednesday, May 27, 2009
I have toned down on the bleeding out and venting out affect on my blog...Becoz my pain was geting to the ppl around me and it was effecting them... We shouldn't let our pain or sadness affect the people around you... We shouldn't make the people around us sad just becoz we can't be strong enough and leave the past behind... I mean these people really love you and care for you... Why should they be sad becoz of you... But in my defense this blog is my space i have a right to say whatever i feel here and whats on my mind... Yea im kinda in the middle here... Khair.. will look into it some other time... Im feeling relaxed at the moment.. I feel content right now.. No sadness right now.. No feelings of pain.. Nothing bad about my mood right now.. But the thing is this never keeps up.. I have been reading alot of blogs lately and they are alot out there and most are about moving on after relationships...And almost all of them say that they have really big mood swings... I have a huge mood swing too.. Im a really moody person... I have mood swings 10 times greater than a pregnant women... One moment you ready to move on with life... And look towards the future... And another moment you feeling really sad... Why is it that our feeling of good mood doesn't last.. Is that we are just too weak.. Or is it suppose to be that way.... I Dont know.. All i wana do right now is kick back and enjoy the champions league final that is going to be on today with some friends...

Today was kinda regular day... Nothing much.. Went well.. Ill be leaving my company at the end of this week.. So im doing my last lunches with my office buddies these days.. Im so gona miss doing lunch with them.. These guys really made my day.. Lunch time used to be another lonely time for me during the day.. But during the past 3-4 months it ended up being my best time.... Lunch today was also fun.. Our really lame and cheap jokes.. Our sastay comments.. Checking out girls in jinnah super.. :P ahh.. will miss all that.. But will do it again sometime hopefully.. I have alot in my plate for the next 3-4 months... Anyways... Looking towards the future... :P

Musically today was okay... It had alot of stone temple pilots in it .. Mostly listened to them... But the song of the day i listened to a couple of hours ago.. Its "Show me what im looking for" by carolina liar... this is i think the only borderline happy song ive been listening to lately.... Has a nice tone to it...Anyways.. Take care.. Have fun...

Show Me what im looking for:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xLtcxrdVFkg
http://www.6lyrics.com/music/carolina_liar/lyrics/show_me_what_i_m_looking_for.aspx


PS: Go BARCA GOO.....

5 comments:

The Pink Orchid said...

I am in a mood for a long comment... so don't mind alright.. i am typing my next comment..

The Pink Orchid said...

first of all,

I have heard so many people say it that 'you shouldnt write sad stuff on your blog, you shouldnt pass on your sadness to others'

to that I have to say is,
we are not forcing anyone to read us neither we are gonna get all depressed if someone doesnt want to read our sad stuff..

we come under the cadre of personal bloggers. Our blogs are personal. We are writing to discover ourselves, to feel better, to talk, to convey, to empty our hearts, to find out what's running in our minds, to find out the solution to our problems.'

You must have noticed this...that everytime you start to write something sad, you mostly end it positively like 'it's ok I will move on', or 'i understand it'll take time' etc etc..

so basically that helps... writing is like talking to our minds.. our alter ego..

so please keep that bindaas-ness intact..

don't ever get into the frenzy of writing for others..ever!

and about mood swings, well all of us are moody in different proportions..so let's not judge ourselves.. let's stay happy the way we are..and enjoy our weaknesses as well as strengths.


too much lecture ho gaya..but after reading your post I had to say all this.. I have been through this phase and I wanted to share.. :)

zyada laga to bol dena.. will keep my comments short ;) from next time on...

Faroha said...

It's tough moving on but that's part of an evolutionary process that brings out the best in you. But we don't understand this while we are suffering. We complain to God why this is happening to us? why everyone seems to be happy but us? But actually when you look back, you find that all that was necessary so that you are the person you are today.

Remember, it's sadness that brings out the best in us....

Ek quote hai Hazrat Ali (RA) ka

" Agar koi museebat tumhay Allah se kareeb kar day, to ye jaan lo k wo aazmaish thi aur agar wo tumhay Allah se door kar day, to ye jaan lo k wo saza hai"

Lonely Perverted Soul said...

@Pink Orchard:
No i dont mind a long comment.. Its like raeding a blog within a blog... And thnx for the lecture.. :P

Lonely Perverted Soul said...

@Faroha:
Thnx Ur comments meant alot...